A break through!

I am finally feeling something besides dread for the process. I have been completely unable to get out of the infertility funk for the last month or so. I am really excited about being pregnant and maybe having a baby. I even bought a onesie at Graceland last weekend that looks like an Elvis (Vegas style) jumpsuit. that kid doesn't stand a chance where fashion is concerned. I think I am feeling so much better because I finally am getting started. The waiting sucked. Tomorrow I have my baseline blood work done, and next Tuesday, I have my trial run (formerly referred to as vaginal mapping). I am nervous about the trial run, even though my doctor said it's, "not bad, just like a pap smear with a bad cramp". Thanks for the reassurance, but in my world, that qualifies as bad. Maybe not terrible, traumatic, or horrifying, but definitely bad. They did tell me to eat something light before the procedure because they give me 800 mg of ibuprofen before they start. I asked if by, "eating something light", she meant I should take a Valium, but my doctor's secretary, while efficient and very nice, apparently doesn't have much of a sense of humor or humanity.
Charlie can't go with me, because he has to travel for work next week and this, like all things IVF, has to be done according to my menstrual cycle (day 7-10 to be exact)My friend Sarah is going to go in case I don't feel like driving myself home and so I don't hyperventilate while waiting for the procedure to begin. This is very kind of her, and she is a good friend. I am trying to appreciate her now, because I worry that, after living through this with me, she'll start avoiding my phone calls and find someone else to fit into the bridesmaid dress I'm supposed to wear in her wedding next month. I will let you all know how it goes!