Where I am now

We got some bad news on Wednesday. None of our remaining 10 embryos survived the freezing. We were pretty upset because now the ones they transferred are the only chance we have for pregnancy. I have been having bad cramps for the last couple of days and no symptoms of pregnancy. I just don't feel pregnant. I am so frustrated by this whole process. I am trying to stay positive, but feel like a crazy person. I have made it through the first week of the 2 week wait. Part of me can't wait for next Friday and a definite answer. Part of me doesn't want it to come because as long as I'm in this place, there is still hope.